Sorry About that last post. I just had to rant for a minute. Haven't done that in a while. So I guess we're all allowed one every now and then.

I'm tired, so tired. Exhausted... for no reason. I haven't slept well the past few nights, but have slept enough. I think (well actually I'm pretty sure) its from STRESS>>> I feel so worn out. My arms and legs feel heavy. I have no energy. I didn't eat last night,and am not really hungry now, which is pretty unusual for me. I am at the end of my rope and hanging by a thread... I am so tired of hearing complaints, bitching, whining and fighting. I don't thinkI have ever said how bad things are...well they are BAD, so bad one night last week, I was up til after 3 in the morning, getting bitched at. Then up at 7 to be at work at 8. I have had enough. I just don't know how to stop it. i want to. I have tried before and I always go back or let him come back... How do I stop this insanity.... Cuz that's what it is. There is no logical reason for any person to act this way. The rants and raves, screaming, it is really unbelievable that this is a person. What do I do? Where do I turn? Why can't he just disappear? AARRRRGGGHHHHHH.. I guess my main question is WHY ME ? I have always tried to be good and have never done anything to anybody. I do not deserve this crap from someone else. I am sick of this..Sick and Tired.

1. A shooting star has passed. You make a wish. What is it? You have to tell in order to get it. That I would have enough money to live comfortably and not have to scrape for money and to be happy!!!

2. Let's go out to lunch. Where do we go? what do you order? Tellini's Pasta Market....Chicken Tetrazzini

3. Take three words to describe these people:

Your childhood best friend: crazy, Wild, Bitch

Your mail lady: don't know her

Your pet (s) expensive to feed

Your soulmate Let ya know

4. What was your best subject in school? History

5. Who was your highschool (teenage) enemy. You know you had one. I really didn't have one.

6. Yellow gold, white gold or silver jewelry? platinum or silver

7. Would you get your labia/sack pierced for $10,000? No

8. Describe your sex life...I wanna know: so-so

9. When you get on the computer where's the FIRST place you go? my email

10. You ganna buy one of my DAMN t-shirts? If I had extra spending money

11. Tell me three of your favorite words: cheesey, fuck, shithell

12. Do you dye your hair? No, should I?

13. Does the carpets match the drapes? (Does your pubes match your head hair color) yes

14. Do you brush your teeth in the shower? Absolutely

15. Three things you want in a friend. Honest, Happy, Loyal

16. Your favorite shoes. (where did you find them? How much? Did they have my size 9).... don't have a fav

17. If you could pick one television show to Veg out on for a whold day...which one would it be? don't watch much t.v. but prob pimp my ride

18. Favorite romance movie? Dirty Dancing

19. Favorite Sci-Fi movie? I hate Sci-fi

20. Favorite Western? Desperado

21. If you could be anywhere right now. Where would it be? on an all expense paid vacation

22. Do you believe in everlasting love? hmmmmmm, maybe

23. What picture is on your desktop? nothing

24. what screensaver? slideshow of pic of my little girl

25. Who was your worst lover? What was so bad? Don't know

26. Who was your best? Why? Rather not say

27. Am I being too nosey for you? Maybe a little..

28. Are you blushing Dawndee?

29. Dogs or Cats or BOTH? Both

30. What is your favorite song right now? Hate me

31. 1 thing thats pissing you off lately The BF

32. Would you describe yourself as jelous? Sometimes

33. Do you like Hickeys? Not at all

34. Do you like coffee? Sometimes..

35. How much? not a whole lot

36. Like if it was choice between coffee and water, which one would you pick? water

37. Here's a $1,000 you have to spend it in ONE store....GO! WAL-MART!!!!!!!

38. When's the last time you saw a penis? a coupla days ago, when the bf got out of the shower

39. What's the last song you listened to? Making Memories of Us.(not sure about that name) by Keith Urban

40. What did you have for breakfast? chikcen and biscuit

41. Do you enjoy giving oral sex? Be honest. No, not really

42. Do you swallow? inquiring minds wanna know. not NO, but HELL NO

43. Helen feel free to skip what you need too (BUT do email me with the answers)

44. How old are you ganna be on your NEXT birthday? 32

45. What are your weekend plans? nothing, get ready for next weekends yardsale

46. Is October busy for you? Don't think so

47. What kind of soap do you use? Dove

48. Why do you buy it? I like it

49. You ganna come to our penis party? Well I live to far away, and if I did come I would prob. be totally embarassed. But I would love to just to hang out w Lo.

50. Gimmie some ideas for Emmas puppy party. Im LOST! Not a clue...If I think of something I'll let ya know.

So you can see her face

My Little Princess

The Dirty Thirty...

1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship? The BF (long story)

2. When was the last time you shaved your legs? Don't remember, I don't have alot so I don't have to very often

.3. What were you doing this morning at 8am? Pulling up at work

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago? Reading blogs

5. Are you any good at math? Horrible.....always my worst grades in school

6. Your prom night? Pretty boring

7. Do you have any famous ancestors? George Washington

8. Have you ever taken out a loan to pay for school? NOPE

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile? Don't have a myspace

10. Last thing received in the mail? Bills, Bills, Bills

11. How many different beverages have you drank today? 2. coffee, MT. Dew

12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machines? i hate leaving messages, but then I hate when others don't leave me messages to me...

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to? Garth Brooks

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? yes

15. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had? None of them have been painful. I love going to the dentist.

16. What is out your back door? pasture, lake, barn

17. Any plans for Friday night? None,,, Boring life

18. Do you like the ocean? Yes, as far as I can tell. I've only been a coupla times.

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different kinds of popcorn for Christmas? Yes, I eat the butter and cheese and leave the caramel.

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium? No, but I'd like to.

21. Do you like a fan blowing on you during sex? I guess, if I were hot. Never really thought about it.

22. Something you are excited about? my yard sale and my grandmother's surprise bday party (she will be 70)

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO? not a big fan of jello...i like jello pudding tho.

24. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive? Sadly no.

25. Describe your keychain: several keys and my keyless entry thingy for my car, and a Kroger card.

26. Where do you keep your change? In a jar, and one in the laundry by the washer for change I find in the washing machine

27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?hmmmmm, prob in high school, when I gave a speech

.28. What kind of winter coat do you have? a black wool pea coat.

29. What was the weather like on your graduation? Hot and Humid.

30. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed? Open.

NEW FACE

Okay, People so Lo hooked me up.. Isn't it great??????? SOOOOOO purty.. My favorite color purple!!! Thank you so much Lo- I love, love love it!!!!!!!!!

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone

whats your name spelt backwards?: Alegna

What did you do last night? cook, clean

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer? nothing lately

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: yes, lots of times

Last time you swam in a pool?: a coupla months ago


What are you wearing?: jeans, t-shirt


How many cars have you owned?: 8

Type of music you dislike most?: can't think of any I just can't stand

Are you registered to vote?: yes

Do you have cable?: yes

What kind of computer do you use?: Dell

Ever made a prank phone call?: Sadly yes

You like anyone right now?: yes

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: neither


Furthest place you ever traveled?: Florida


What's your favorite comic strip?: don"t really have a fav

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: yes

Shower, morning or night?: whenever I feel the need.sometimes both in the same day

Best movie you've seen in the past month?: Gothika, one of my favs. I watch it every time it comes on t.v

Favorite pizza toppings?: pepperoni, black olives, onions, extra sauce

Chips or popcorn?: I like both

What cell phone provider do you have?: Cingular

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: No, thankyou. I'll stick to Marlboro

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: yes

Orange Juice or apple?: I like both

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: My boss, and the other girl here.

favorite chocolate bar?: Caramello

Who is your longest friend and how long?: my mom. all my life

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: I hate tomatos!!!!!!!!!!

Have you ever won a trophy?: yes, softball

Favorite arcade game?: pac-man

Ever ordered from an infomercial?: Yes

Sprite or 7-UP?: Neither, My mom used to make me drink these if I was sick and now that's all I think of with these. But if I'm sick I drink either

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: No

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: Mucinex D, for my ear

Ever thrown up in public?: No. I don't think so.....Can't remember.... Oh wait, there was this one time I was drunk... and threw up in the parking lot of a hotel.

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: Millionaire

Do you believe in love at first sight?: No, I believe in lust at first sight, maybe then love develops later

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: Spongebob

Did you have long hair as a young kid?: Yes, I have long hair now too..

What message is on your voicemail machine?: Cingular message with me saying my name

Where would you like to go right now?: Somewhere to find money, cuz I am so broke.

Whats the name of your pet?: Lucifer-cat
Lacey-dog
Bud- horse
Dixie-horse

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it? i don't have a backpack

What do you think about most?: My life and money troubles

5 Things about me.

1. When I get mad or upset, I go sit in my closet.
This is where I find the most quiet and peace.

2. I have a pound puppie from when I was a kid.
I would sleep with it now, if the b.f. would let me.

3. I am terrified of frogs and crickets. I have sprained my
ankle several times, running away from frogs.

4. I have seen "things", really more like felt their presence.

5. If I won the lottery or something, I would still come to work
and act like nothing had happened.

Just so you know, what I look like

well, my ear is a little better. It is has opened up somewhat. It still hurts, but not nearly as bad. It was more annoying than painful. The medicine that I have to drop in still burns like fire and makes it hurt, so I am trying to do that before bed, and then go lay down.

I have been shopping for Helen's Halloween goodies. I have picked up several things, and am going to look for a few more. I know I need to get it in the mail so it will have plenty of time to get there. I got the coolest bubble gum eyeballs. The kiddos should love them.

The community where I live has a yearly community wide yard sale the first weekend in October, so I have been busy this weekend, getting things together for the yard sale. I have so many little girl clothes to get rid of. I should hopefully make enough money to get started on her new fall wardrobe. It is amazing how fast they grow out of things. Most of the outfits I got together looked brand new. If I had a digital camera and internet at home, I could prob get lots more money, by grouping several outfits together and listing them on ebay. But I guess I will just make do with what I have. Since the move, I also have a lot of old household items to get rid of. I can't wait to rid myself of some of the clutter and get things in order.

I am still dealing with the bf and his crap, although I don't let it get to me like I did before. I am to the point of if he's there fine and if not fine. I just hate the feeling that I am wasting my time, when I could be looking for someone new that would be good to me, or just being happy by myself with the kids. Oh well, I won't dwell on that now, for I am in a pretty good mood and don't wanna ruin it.

Oh yeah, LO- I hope your surgery was sucessful and that you are feeling okay. Hope to see you writing again soon. I have been checking your blog all day for updates. GET WELL SOON!!

okay peeps, I am out, almost time to go home.

NO RELIEF

So, I went to the Ear,Nose and Throat Clinic this morning. And guess what? I have a hole in my eardrum, so still no relief for my ear. He says it should heal on its own, but may take several weeks. Bummer!!!!!!!!! I have had enough of this already, not including today when I had to have a hearing test, and pressure tests on my ear. As if it didn't hurt already. So, still feel stopped up, then my A** was set on fire by the steroid shot I received in my hip. What next??? hmmmm, I prob shouldn't say that.
Anyway that is all for today I am not feeling to well. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. The weather here is nice, it is finally cooling off enough you can actually go outside without melting.
So I will see you all on Monday,, unless I happen to use my Mom's computer over the weekend.

Well, as you all know I painted my bathroom, my mom has bought me a wall paper border to put up. It is so cute, it has palm trees and little monkeys.... I love monkeys...I can't wait to put it up.
Other than that, my life is dullsville. Nothing going on. Except my ear, It has been stopped up since Friday night. I went to the Dr. Sunday b/c it is driving me crazy. They said I had fluid in my ear. So I was given antibiotics, an allergy nasal spray and told to take some Mucinex D, and it should start draining out in 24-48 hours.......GUESS WHAT???? It's still stopped up. I am going insane, I can't stand this. I called the Dr. back today and they said it should have drained and all they could do is refer me to an Ear, Nose and Throat Clinic.....Which would cost me an arm and a leg and prolly an ear. SOOOOOOO Any suggestions???????? I don't know how much longer I can take this..... It is not so much painful as it is annoying.

I am excited about Helen's Halloween swap.. I plan to shop this weekend, and get stuff in the mail to you......

King, I miss you. I sent you an email, I don't know if you got it or not. Hope so!

Well, I better get back to trying to work and holding my ear. I can't concentrate b/c of my stupid ear...

Steve Irwin Tribute

I finally did it. I finished painting my bathroom. I still haven't hung up pictures and put everything back in it, but it's painted. So that is one thing down, one million to go.

The birthday party went well. Just the usual boys being boys.
I'm glad that's over. All birthdays for this year are over. Now I just have to get prepared for Christmas. I think this year may be slim. As money is tight. Oh, Publishers Clearing House, please pull my name. Please just once. I enter like everyday, surely that should be worth a couple grand at least. I would be happy with that. It would get me caught up at least.

I hope all of you had a wonderful weekend and holiday.I did enjoy the extra day off yesterday. I have spent all weekend on the house. Hanging pics, painting the bath and that sort of stuff. So I kinda feel like I didn't have a weekend.

Well I guess I better get outta here and get to work.

Hi All. Haven't been here much this week. I been kinda busy at work. We have times like that where we are so busy and then some days we don't do much of anything. Not a lot going on with me lately anyway. Work, home, Work again. That sums it up. I have finally found the paralegal classes I want to take, now I just have to come up with the money to pay for it. They let you make payments every month, but I am already stretching each dollar as far as the eye can see. I don't know if I can stretch any more. We'll see, I may have to wait awhile on that. But if I have the degree I can get a better salary which would help out with the money situation. I just can't figure out how to work this all in.

Anyway, Shay please tell King that I love him and will be thinking of all of you. And when he feels better, my blog is his to do what he will. Wasn't he just like a kid about that? He was so excited. Bless his heart. And will you please take some pictures in Sweden? This is how I get to travel is by everyone's pictures that they post. I just love Helen's pics of England.

Tonight is my oldest child's' birthday party. He is having 2 friends to spend the night. They are having pizza and we rented movies. He is very excited. I think my mom is going to bake a great big chocolate chip cookie and then we will decorate the cookie like a cake. Oh what fun. I love cake frosting. Yum!!!!! I think I will volunteer for the decorating part.

Well I guess I better be off and get to work now. Have a good weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!