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Yeah. King is posting again and we can comment again. Isn't it strange, how someone that you don't even know personally or have ever met, can make such an impression in your life. Well, that's how I feel about King. If I don't read his blog everyday I feel lost, like part of my own life has been left out for the day. King keeps me going when times are hard. He is such an inspiration to me.
Anyway, the weekend was uneventful. I cleaned my house. Washed laundry. Did a little shopping and that's about it. So all in all the weekend was pretty good. Not much has changed on the homefront. I don't guess it ever will. So that is life. It suckz and then you die. Maybe, one day I will find someone who will appreciate me and realize that I have more to offer than running a hotel/maid service in my home.
My little one is finally becoming potty trained. so far 2 weeks in real underpants with only 1 accident. No more pull-ups, those things are expensive. I am so proud. Those of you with children will relate to that, I'm sure.
Well, I guess I better get out for now. I have work to do. I will post again later. See ya. Everyone take care.

well, here I am again. Still have some sort of block. I can't think of anything to say. I am tired of saying the same things over and over again. So this may be more of just a rambling of thoughts than anything else. I am so depressed, frustrated and I don't know what else. I just know I don't feel good. I want to scream really loud. But I won't of course. I miss King, he won't post anymore, Don't you know I need you, just to post and give me something to read, something else to think about. Don't you know I need you to encourage me. So cut the crap and write. There how bout that. You have to write!!!!! I started this because of you and so if I have to do this then so do you.
Life is pretty much the same for me. All the crap with the bf. Although, I don't seem to be taking it so hard. I think I am getting to a point where I don't care. I don't want to tell him to leave, but in my mind I keep thinking maybe he will just leave. I guess that way I can blame him, I don't know what it is. Does that make sense? I just know I am to the point of almost begging him not to come home. Just go somewhere, anywhere, so long as I don't have to deal with you. Maybe that's it, I am just not wanting to deal. It is so much easier not to. I just don't know. I know I would miss him in a way. but is that more habit than anything? I love him, I just don't love his actions, I don't really even know if I love him, or the idea of the way things were when I first met him. hmmmmm. Good thought. Maybe loving him is also just a habit, just like smoking cigarettes. I could put them down, but I don't want to I am comfortable that way. Except with him I am not comfortable, exactly. I don't know what I am. okay I think this is enough rambling for now.

Well. Haven't been here in a while. Don't know why, just haven't felt like putting anything down. It seems like all my posts are the same, just me whineing and bitching about the bf everyday. I guess I got tired of it. Well, not much has changed. We went to the fireworks show on the 4th, we did enjoy that. But we did go seperately and meet up there, then he didn't come home that night. and my birthday was the 5th He wasn't there for much of my birthday. He did get me a really nice jewelry armoire. So that was good. Other than that, things have pretty much been uneventful or rathter the same old same old. Anyway I hope everyone else is well and had a good holiday.

Congratulations to King and Kiko!!!!!!!!!!!!Best wishes to both of you.