Flowers and Crap

Well, my friend has a new boyfriend, so she is giddy and happy and all mushy,gushy. And I look at her and think AWWWWWWWWWWW, that is so sweet. I wanna be like that. He showers attention on her, sends or brings flowers every other day or so when the previous ones are dead or just a little wilting. And I think to myself, "why can't I have that?" And then I remember, I did have that at one time. I dated a guy just like that, flowers all the time, gifts galore. If I mentioned in casual conversation that I had seen something that caught my eye, He would show up with it the next day. No expense spared,no question of "why the fuck do you want that, that is a waste of money." Just whatever I wanted. And do you know what? I broke up with him because it got on my nerves. What? You all say... How could you? And here you sit complaining of how bad things are, and you had it that good. Shame on you!!!! Yes, I know. I have some sort of problem. I have never liked the nice guys, they were just too boring. Give me the big, muscle, badass with a bad attitude to match and I am fine. ARRRRGH what is wrong with me? I don't know. I have always been that way.... Flowers are nice, very nice, but they die. Complete waste of money. Open my car door...WHAT>> I am sitting here like I am helpless, and I could've already opened my own door, and gotten out and we would be halfway to the door already. Wast of time, and I am not helpless so I can open my own door Thanks. I think I want to find a happy medium.... Give me a badass, that has common courtesy. Impossible???? He won't have to give me flowers, except maybe Valentine's Day, He won't have to buy me gifts for no reason, only holidays and birthdays. And even then I will provide a list of options. How simple is that? Open my door, not even an issue. Just simple courtesy Is all I will expect. Just realize this is home, not a hotel, I am not the maid, cook, housekeeper, sex slave, dishwasher, laundrywoman, babysitter, or your mother, I AM YOUR mate, spouse, partner, lover, EQUAL>>>> which means anything you expect me to do, you are not too good to do yourself~